Thank God it's Friday...

I am tiredddd... both mentally and physically. Customers drained you out just like that. It's fun though... I enjoy it, most of the time hehe. When I was upfront at the cash register, this guy told me that I look familiar

The guy: You look familiar, did you go to franklin high school?
me: no, i didn't. Well, I do have a familiar face. *me sadly thinking that I look like a person that he knows. dang it... not again!*
The guy: *thinking* hmm... did you work for UPS?
me: Yes, I did!!! Were you a helper? *hell yeahhh... my face is not that familiar anyway hauhauauh yessss*
The guy: Yes I was.... bla bla bla
me: bla bla bla....(not important enough to be written here.)

Ok, that wasnt the exact conversation, but pretty much the same. He remembers me!!! I was shocked, it's almost a year and he still remembers me. Good memory! I didnt remember him though hahaha... Oh well, we trained at least 120 people. How do you expect me to remember everyone.

Important announcement

Hihi... I found berkin's friendster. It's actually by accident. It's on the first page, where it says 'people who live locally'. I was surprised when I saw his name hauuhaha... It's funny because we just talked about it at mike's place. I sent him a message also, asking how he's doing etc and all those BS stuff. He loves sex and the city... sigh...

I've got a crush on you

"Men always want to be a woman's first love - women like to be a man's last romance" - Oscar Wilde.

This is one of my favorite scenes from winter sonata. It's really cute. Btw I have a major crush on Bae Yong Joon!!! When I saw his pictures years ago, when winter sonata just played on TV, I thought that this guy looks ordinary. He is not that cute and kinda look old. I was confused why girls/ladies got all excited about him. After I saw the series, I understand why. I think the writers did a great job in making him so adorable hehe... He's the perfect guy that every women dreams of. I dont think there is such guy out there.

Too Funny !!!

I just gotta post this right away. I'm cracking up right now because of the comments people put on youtube on every episode of winter sonata. It is so hillarious!!! I always read the comments on every episode because people, including me, are getting all worked up because of this drama. These are a couple of the comments :

i hate sang hyuk!!!!!!!!!!!! he's such a cheap person,, he just wants yujin as a body and not her whole person,, he's trapping her again,,,, EMOTIONAL BLACKMAIL,,,,that's what it was since he starved,,, yujin should have let him die,,, and joon sang is too good a person to make decisions for yujin,,,,

the emotional blackmail cracks me up... I've never heard of such term before hahaha...

another one:
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG i wanna kill that sanhyuk. that f***ing bastard ...let me at him LET ME at him i haaaaaaaate him DIE BITCH DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Money money money

I just checked my credit card balance. I spent $... (too embarassing to tell) during my 3 day shopping spree. It's crazy!!!! Well it did include the $130 facial but still, I spent way too much money. Hopefully I'll get more hours at the bookstore. I need to replenish my savings account. Shopping is the best therapy for me. Whenever I feel down or stressed out, I just go shopping ~ retail stores are my bestfriends. I guess it runs in the family.

Express sent me a letter saying that they will have a new express card where if we buy a certain amount of stuff, we will get points which can be redeemed later on. Wish they had that reward card last year when I spent a gazillion dollars at their store. Oohh.. btw I just need to spend $98 more this year at banana republic to qualify for the luxe card. You dont wanna know how much I've spent at that store. Months ago I wasn't sure I will be able to reach that limit but now... it's only $100 away hehehe... Gosh.. I gotta stop this... I need to start building my mini empire and saving money is the first step. After that, I need to invest some money but my parents won't let me invest in currency exchange or stocks/bonds. I guess it's too risky so I just go to the safest way possible which is put my money in CD. Thanks to caroline who introduced me to the online bank and help me save my money. And no, I won't give you comission for that lin... I know you will ask such thing hahaha... (peace) Udah ah, talking about money worries me. Hopefully Bae Yong Jun will be able to comfort me. Wakakakkaka..... ehem... hihi...

Three bear song

Expect me to post a lot of korean videos for the next few days. I'm just so into korean drama right now hehe... This scene is hillarious, I laughed my ass off the first time I saw it. Me, dea and citra even did the dance together in their fremont apartment.

Winter Sonata

My my my... I just found the whole series of winter sonata on youtube.... Bae Yong Jun is cute! especially in the early episodes of the series, when his hair is still short and not orange... This is bad... yesterday was Patrick Dempsey and today is Bae Yong Jun... Who will it be tomorrow?Sigh... I love looking at cute actors that have charisma...

Btw youtube really consumes a lot of my time. I can't stop browsing youtube and now I've found winter sonata... Huaaaa...

One order of McDreamy please

I'm watching grey's anatomy clips on youtube and I'm hooked. I can't stop watching McDreamy. He is so charming. The way Mcdreamy stares at Meredith makes my heart melt. I want a McDreamy of my own. I'll have a McDreamy with cheese and an order of fries... oh what the heck... I'll have the combo meal and make it supersize since he is so yummy....

I'm on my knees
Only memories are left for me to hold
Don't know how but I'll get by
Slowly pull myself together

There's no escape so keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold like from another world
Come what may I won't fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
I've lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

'Grace' ~ Kate Havnevik

Ramalama clip

The so you think you can dance clip didn't work, apparently it has been removed from youtube so I uploaded a new clip. It's a live version of Ramalama by Roisin Murphy. The intro beat was not really obvious, I like the recording version better.

Little conversation

Feeding the homeless was an amazing experience for me. I didn't have a conversation with any of them though and I was kind of disappointed. I was a bit shy and mostly afraid to engage in a conversation. I'm sure they are great people but it's just I was afraid that I ended up offending them or said something stupid. "Would you like some juice/sauce over the rice?" That's mostly what I said to each of them the entire night... The lady that organizes this feeding is almost 80 years old but she looks like she's 65 or so. She looks so young!!! She's very friendly, energetic and faithful. She really is an inspiration. She's been doing this feeding ministry for 15 years now. They serve lunch and dinner, monday to thursday. It's a different group every time. Our church gets the opportunity to serve dinner the first Thursday every month. She has to turned down groups who want to help serve because the slots are full. She is an amazing woman and I was wowed with the stories she told.

I am very fortunate to live the life that I'm living. I am blessed to have great parents who love me, who work hard and sacrificed so much for me. But I am always on the receiving end. It's about time for me to go to the other end and start giving back. When I was living on greenlake area, I saw this old lady almost every day,she always wear this yellow tunic/jacket, sitting next to the stop sign near the I-5 entrance/exit. I always said to myself that next time I see her, I will give her some money but I kept saying that to myself and never put it to action. I feel guilty every time I see her... I know I could do something to help her but all I did was just driving past her. Months ago I saw her on pioneer square... I was quite surprised to see her in downtown area since she's usually in the north. She was sitting on the bench in front of the underground tour place, eating... I was with Adam at that time and when we were done with the underground tour, she was still there... I told Adam about how I always see her everyday. Then I remembered that I have a sunshine kit in my car. It's a ziploc bag with toothbrush, toothpaste, granola bars, shampoo, etc... basic hygiene necessity... I told him I wanted to give her a bag and the parking garage was not that far but as usual, when I got to the car, I just froze and decided to just leave and to not give her the kit. I hate myself for doing that. A week ago, Anissa and I were at the traffice light on 105th and aurora. Anissa noticed there's a lady who's walking towards our car holding a sign... Anissa said, oh we should give out the sunshine kit. I was in the passenger seat and when I was about to give the kit to the lady, I noticed that the lady is the same lady that I always see these past 3 years. It's the yellow jacket lady! When she received the kit, she said oh this is nice, thank you. I was so happy that it finally happened. I finally made contact with her. I really want to get to know her. I want to know her life stories... Maybe because I see her a lot, I just want to talk to her. Hopefully someday I will have the courage to approach her and have a little conversation.

Ramalama

I first heard the song "Ramalama (bang bang)" on so you think you can dance tv show. It's a weird song but I love it and the dance choreography by wade robson was awesome. Roisin Murphy sings that song and she was the lead singer of the band "Moloko". Their hit single was Bring it Back, which reminds me of my junior high school years... Ahh miss those days...

So, in my kickboxing class, the instructor use music remix. I don't know if she mixes them herself. It's pretty cool and very upbeat. I'm sure I've heard most of the remixes she use but today I just realize that Ramalama song was one of the songs in the remixes. It's not obvious though... it's only the beat... but I just recognized it today and I was smiling widely the whole time that remix was playing haha...

You don't see me

This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin' and tumblin' and breakin'

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends, Nothing but good friends?

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you