Little conversation

Feeding the homeless was an amazing experience for me. I didn't have a conversation with any of them though and I was kind of disappointed. I was a bit shy and mostly afraid to engage in a conversation. I'm sure they are great people but it's just I was afraid that I ended up offending them or said something stupid. "Would you like some juice/sauce over the rice?" That's mostly what I said to each of them the entire night... The lady that organizes this feeding is almost 80 years old but she looks like she's 65 or so. She looks so young!!! She's very friendly, energetic and faithful. She really is an inspiration. She's been doing this feeding ministry for 15 years now. They serve lunch and dinner, monday to thursday. It's a different group every time. Our church gets the opportunity to serve dinner the first Thursday every month. She has to turned down groups who want to help serve because the slots are full. She is an amazing woman and I was wowed with the stories she told.

I am very fortunate to live the life that I'm living. I am blessed to have great parents who love me, who work hard and sacrificed so much for me. But I am always on the receiving end. It's about time for me to go to the other end and start giving back. When I was living on greenlake area, I saw this old lady almost every day,she always wear this yellow tunic/jacket, sitting next to the stop sign near the I-5 entrance/exit. I always said to myself that next time I see her, I will give her some money but I kept saying that to myself and never put it to action. I feel guilty every time I see her... I know I could do something to help her but all I did was just driving past her. Months ago I saw her on pioneer square... I was quite surprised to see her in downtown area since she's usually in the north. She was sitting on the bench in front of the underground tour place, eating... I was with Adam at that time and when we were done with the underground tour, she was still there... I told Adam about how I always see her everyday. Then I remembered that I have a sunshine kit in my car. It's a ziploc bag with toothbrush, toothpaste, granola bars, shampoo, etc... basic hygiene necessity... I told him I wanted to give her a bag and the parking garage was not that far but as usual, when I got to the car, I just froze and decided to just leave and to not give her the kit. I hate myself for doing that. A week ago, Anissa and I were at the traffice light on 105th and aurora. Anissa noticed there's a lady who's walking towards our car holding a sign... Anissa said, oh we should give out the sunshine kit. I was in the passenger seat and when I was about to give the kit to the lady, I noticed that the lady is the same lady that I always see these past 3 years. It's the yellow jacket lady! When she received the kit, she said oh this is nice, thank you. I was so happy that it finally happened. I finally made contact with her. I really want to get to know her. I want to know her life stories... Maybe because I see her a lot, I just want to talk to her. Hopefully someday I will have the courage to approach her and have a little conversation.