Another dilemma

I cant believe I'm faced with this dilemma. I've experienced it last year and it happens again. Should I go home or stay? If I go home, I have to leave the states by late August, which is in 3 months. I am so not ready for that. I am not ready to say goodbye to Seattle, which means I have to go back to school. I have 2 options: get a master's degree or get a certificate. Master's degree is 2 years with no break while certificate is 1 year but it's a certificate only and it's in college, it's not even a certificate that i want to take. Huaaa... I am very disappointed with city u. they decided to offer online classes for their graduate certificate which means international students are not elligible because to get the I20, I have to be in class. They're the only one who offers certificate in finance!!! It was all perfect before. I could go home at the beginning of next year, I have some basic knowledge about finane.

What I should do is probably go back home and help my parents. That way, I can save all my money that I've collected so far by working at UPS and my parents dont have to pay for my graduate school. What I want to do is stay in Seattle a bit longer, probably get my master's degree because it's only a year difference than a certificate. Then I can go back to jakarta this summer, get a new visa, pickup my lil bro, renew my passport and be happy. If adam decides to stay in canada, I can visit him also because I will have my visa. tututututu....

I hate goodbyes

My boyfriend went back to windsor yesterday, hehe still not used to calling him my bf. You know, we're a new couple, everything still look oh so sweet. Dont wanna be a pessimist but usually this happy happy feeling only last for 6 months ahhaa... but i think it depends on the person. we'll see how this goes. I am really happy now and it's weird because I hate long distance relationship. Based on past experience, I've never been successful in maintaining long distance relationship but I've changed a lot, more mature now. I'm willing to work hard to make this work.

He left me 2 notes in my room before he left. I found the first one, it was under my laptop. I've been searching for the second one but couldnt find it!!! I've asked for hints but still cant find it and he wont let me know where it is... Sigh... A bit annoyed right now cause i've searched all over the place. My room is a total mess hhehe... as usual... Huaaa i miss him... hix hix....